I had a conversation with my baby sister yesterday(19-08-2021) about me traveling today and she told me something I never realized.

This was her message to me when she saw I was leaving;

“Like I like you going forward and upwards but sometimes the feeling of having the rest of the world have you is justtt☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️”

So I asked her to explain this is what she said and it hit me right in my soul.

“I just feel like some people just aren’t for sharing with the rest of the world. You are people. People is you. Just not for sharing with the rest of the world.”

I asked her what she feels that way.

“Idk. It’s just how you’d like to keep the most greatest things to yourself you know. Like you just want to keep it hidden or tucked away type.”

To which I told her someone’s gotta do it. Someone’s gotta do different.

She said;

“☹️I know. That’s why it sucks. But love that for you.”

Mann I’d never thought of that ever before this point. I mean I did when I first started this journey years ago. But I hadn’t in a while.

Here’s context to her sentiments.

I started the journey I’m on now outside the comfort of our family home, I started this journey without the privilege of having well-to-do parents. That has meant I’ve had to work harder than I ever had to work before. This meant no days off, no weekends off, no public holidays off, no festive season, NOTHING. For almost 5 years now it’s been nothing but work. I don’t go to many family gatherings, I don’t spend as much time with my friends as I would like, my sisters have had to grow up with me being almost always busy.

Whenever I visit it’s very brief, I’m on my way to something, or I’m picking up or dropping off something with them. I’ve found they cherish those 5-minute stops, those moments when I can spoil them a little and just be around them.

I’m the only boy in my family, and the eldest too. This conversation with my sister made me realize that the price for the life I lead stretches outside of even myself. My sisters have to had to pay a high price for my lifestyle. Granted my lifestyle can be justified but that doesn’t make the price any easier to pay.

To be appreciated like that is different. To be loved like that is different. So to all those who surround me who feel this way I love you and I’m sorry that it has to be this way.

As young, as she is at 18 even she realizes that a price must be paid for the future we want. Fortunately for me, I’ve spent as much time as I can over the years, drilling my decision-making process for my lifestyle and the benefits into my sisters’ heads. The youngest only turned 14 this year, but they are the ones I’m hardest on.

To all others who are afraid or who haven’t gone done this path of personal fulfillment. Consider this a challenge to do so.


If you’ve not yet gotten to the place you want in life if you’ve not yet achieved certain things if you’ve not yet acquired a certain status, a certain income bracket, whatever it is. If you’ve not gotten there, you’ve not paid the price for what you want to attain.

I’m nowhere near where I want to be yet and I’ve already given 5 years of my life to this cause. And I’ve already got the next 10 years ready to be dedicated to the cause. Becasue I’m not going to rest until I attain the things I strive for.

Many of us reading this know what we want, we even know what it’s going to take to get to where we want to go, but we lack the discipline and drive to put in the work for the things we want. That’s why we are stuck in the cycles we live in, that’s why we spend so much time, effort, and resources trying to escape our lives. Because it isn’t the life we want, but the price for the life we want seems too high.



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  1. I love this about you as well my brother. The fact that you are able to stick to the goals you’ve set yourself but more importantly, make the people who love you aware of the price you (and they) must pay for your collective futures. This is a hard and lonely road I’ve realized. Even my mum who I’d give the world for does not understand sometimes why I am ‘hard’. But great legacies come at a great cost. Imagine what our grandparents or great grand parents have had to sacrifice for us to be children born in this day and age? We owe it to them to build futures for our children that are better than what we started out with. More than that, we owe it to ourselves to LIVE so fully that we die with nothing left in the tank.

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